Just A Nobody

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This blog was started to share the journey of what God has called me to do, serve our friends whithout homes. A long the way it has also become part of my journey as well.

Monday, November 9, 2009


The day you entered my life, I was filled with excitement, yet fear all at the same time.

Filled with joy over this new guy in my life, but fear of not being good enough for him.

Could I be there for him in all his needs?
Could I help make all his dreams come true?
Could I love him with everything I had?

Then you left. No notice, no warning, in a blink of an eye you were no longer here. My world came to a crashing halt and shattered before my eyes. A part of my heart where I held you so close, broke and now is left with emptiness, pain and grief.

I sit here ten years later and think if I could just have one more moment with you.

I would give my legs to have one more moment to walk with you!

I would give up speaking if I could just for one moment tell you how much I love you!

I would give up my eyes to see your face for just one moment!

I would give up my arms to hold you for just one moment!

I would give up my life and all I have to spend just one more moment with you and have you say the one word I long to hear again…….”MOM!”

I love you my dear son!

Feb. 18, 1982-Nov. 10, 1999

Don’t ever forget to tell those you love, how much you really do LOVE THEM!


Lou said...

Oh, Denie, from the heart of one mother to another, I pray for peace for you.

I had a patient once, she was 86, and during the course of small talk with her she told me she had lost her son. She talked of him with such fresh pain, I thought it had just happened. Then she told me he had died 36 years ago. Her wound still hurt.

I'm so sorry. Know you will have some one waiting for you in heaven.

Denie said...


Thanks for the comment and you are right about your patient....the wound is deep and even though you learn to hide it, it is always fresh and just doesn't quite heal.

I woke up this morning and the first thoughts in my head were of you and your son. I hope you are doing okay.....felt a need to lift you both up in prayer this morning.

We may not know each other personally, but I want you to know you are loved very much and thoughts of you come to mind very often.

Smile and know you are special to so many!

Love ya!

shallowfrozenwater said...

Denie, i'm sorry for your pain and i pray a blessing of grace, peace and hope for you.

Denie said...

Love you much Shallow water!!!!