I parked the car and started walking down the alley. There was a group of the guys there and stopped to talk to them. We laughed, joked and shared their company for a while. Through the group I could see her sitting there trying desperately to hide from the world.
She is beautiful, young and I had seen her around before. She sits alone with her books, never looking or engaging with anyone. I watch her as the others talk to me and I wonder what lies beneath. What has life done to her and what hurts and pains is she trying to escape from. Her books that are so dear to her, are they her world that she runs too? A place she can sit alone and escape to, do they hold a world that she wishes she had? Does she read of a love she longs for? I have never seen anyone who has tried to close themselves off from the world as much as she does.
I try to speak to her and all I can get out of her is that she is okay. I so want to put my arms around her and hold her and tell her how much she is loved. I know she is not ready for that now. She has built walls so high that it will take time to break them down. I will continue to check on her, keep her in prayer and hopefully in time those walls will weaken and crumble.
Just A Nobody
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Was going thru my Journal the other day and came across an old entry. I had written about a trip to the thrift store that I had taken with one of my sons. He was looking for a cd player he could use at work.
When we got there, we were directed to the backroom of the store and told we might have to dig a little. James had said that he didn’t care how it looked or what shape it was in as long as he could play his cd’s on it. So we spent some time moving and digging thru things and then there it was, this awesome CD player buried beneath all the junk. It had a few dings, but James felt like he scored big time.
After we got home I was looking at it and noticed the tag taped to the player, it stated that the item was sold “as is” with all it’s dents, flaws, uniqueness and beauty. I sat and thought about the digging and the junk we just went thru to find this treasure and had to wonder how much digging and junk are we willing to go thru with someone to find the beauty and uniqueness they posses or are we to quick to toss them into the heap of undesirables?
The next time you come across that person who has been labeled “undesirable” and dicarded, are you willing to take the time to dig for that beauty that God placed in them and will you look him/her in the face and say “I will accept you AS IS”?